I was trying to frame a poem and somewhere in between I tried to put "It wasn’t suicidal" but the syllables wouldn’t fit in. I needed only 5 and hence I should omit one syllable.

Should I remove "Not" or "It"????

This provoked me to realise how people try endlessly to fit in/meet the expectations which were deliberately structured by our society and it is susceptible for the youngster to choose the wrong word.

I won’t remove "NOT" just to follow the format
(It messes up the whole meaning)
I’d rather remove "IT" from the sentence.
(Coz it still makes sense in the poem)
If it isn’t for removing "not" or "it" I’d probably change the whole damn structure.

I'd druther decorate my life with my druthers.